So now that I have had somewhat of a better day, I was analyzing last night. I think that I was in a bad position and wanted to drink...but now I'm looking at it from outside the glass and I see that I would have made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. Drinking again would have made me a different person then from what I am now. I have worked so hard to become this person...to get the real Katrina back to where I was a few years ago.
It's strange to me that only a few years ago I knew what I was doing in my life and I knew that I was going to be doing something great, like constantly going on mission trips and trying to be a better person. It's weird how I have lost that in the short span of time that I was able to pick up a beer, or in my case, another martini or vodka shot.
I know have a clearer picture of what I am doing in my life. Yeah I know I'm far away from graduating, but at least I have the intention of graduating. I love my life right now, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I just had that little moment yesterday that I thought things were all over with.
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